Addiction has always been a part of my story, and my first addiction was food. Due to some childhood trauma I had turned to food as my drug of choice at a young age, and by the time I was 15 I was around 260 pounds and facing some real medical issues. I wish that I could say that I went on a crossfit style fitness journey, shed the weight, and lived happily ever after, but that’s not my story.
What happened was many years of trading addictions in order to numb the pain and redirect the consequences of the past decisions. Eating disorders replaced the food addiction, then cigarettes and alcohol replaced the food control, then drugs were added into the mix to ease it all out. It was years of trying to control what was happening within and my weight and emotional state fluctuated wildly.
It’s been over a 20 year battle that was so much more than picking up a weight and doing some crunches. Sobriety, self reflection, connection to a higher power, forgiveness, and valuing myself were equally as important to my transformation as any physical component.
I’m happy with where I am today and when I look at photos of where I came from I have a sense of love and compassion for what that little boy went through. His heart, kindness, grit, and dreams allowed for me to be where I am today and I am forever grateful for the journey that lead me here.
Most journeys aren’t what they appear and I’m happy to be able to share mine with you in the hopes that you can approach yours with kindness and patience.
I’m here for you if you need me.