Addiction has always been a part of my story, and my first addiction was food. Due to some childhood trauma I had turned to food as my drug of choice at a young age, and by the time I was 15 I was around 260 pounds and facing some real medical issues. I wish that I could say that I went on a crossfit style fitness journey, shed the weight, and lived happily ever after, but that’s not my story.
What happened was many years of trading addictions in order to numb the pain and redirect the consequences of the past decisions. Eating disorders replaced the food addiction, then cigarettes and alcohol replaced the food control, then drugs were added into the mix to ease it all out. It was years of trying to control what was happening within and my weight and emotional state fluctuated wildly.
It’s been over a 20 year battle that was so much more than picking up a weight and doing some crunches. Sobriety, self reflection, connection to a higher power, forgiveness, and valuing myself were equally as important to my transformation as any physical component.
I’m happy with where I am today and when I look at photos of where I came from I have a sense of love and compassion for what that little boy went through. His heart, kindness, grit, and dreams allowed for me to be where I am today and I am forever grateful for the journey that lead me here.
Most journeys aren’t what they appear and I’m happy to be able to share mine with you in the hopes that you can approach yours with kindness and patience.
I’m here for you if you need me.
“I have no special talents, I am only passionately curious” – Albert Enstein
Einstein was able to change the world because he didn’t allow for others to stop his curiosity. He kept asking why and got to the root of each problem he was trying to solve. Imagine what would have happened if he would have listened to those who brushed his inquisitive nature off and retorted with “because that’s the way it is”.
When I was teaching preschool I made it my mission to engage in each child’s question of “why ?”, because I viewed it as a true sign that they needed to be more engaged on a topic. So often it’s our own impatience that stifles another’s need to learn.
Keep asking why and keep encouraging others to do so as well. It just might change the world.
Before we get started, I want to make something very clear.
I’m making all of this up as I go…
You can call me a fake, a phony, a fraud, and I’m ok with that. Because I am. And so are you. And so is every successful human to walk the planet.
Regardless of our education, our background, or our divine gifts, we are all simply putting our voice out in the world with the hopes that it will make an impact. Our experiences can shape our words to give them more heft or provide us with more gravitas, but at the end of the day we are just shaping ideas from a mold of clay and hoping someone enjoys the final product.
So now that we’ve cleared that up, I want to share with you why I’m making things up. I’m doing it because I have a deep desire to invest and connect with people so that together we can recognize our unique human value. I want to be able to shine a light onto your passions, your drive, and help you recognize that the world is waiting for the gift you have to give.
A while back, a few colleagues of mine gave me the nickname “Thunder Vest” because in the most stressful situations I was able to calm our team and help get them through the storm. A thunder vest is typically given to fearful dogs with the intent to apply gentle, constant pressure to calm fear. I could rack my brain for years and not come up with a better description of how I approach my work, so it stuck. Through gentle pressure and constant support, I’m here to help give you insight into how you can make the changes you need to release the fear and take ownership of your potential.
So… let’s make things up together and go change the world.